So this year so far has been a rollercoaster of emotions, mainly stress, anxiety, anger and sadness.

First and foremost I've been avoiding posting about my endeavours lately because I feel as though nothing good has happened to me for a while and my 'healthy' routines have gone right out of the window which is not helping my mood at all.

I have been under a considerable amount of stress and it hasn't come to an end just yet; Firstly I am in my third year of University as you may have read from my last post and with that comes a mountain of work which I can't juggle with the rest of my life right now.

Also, I have just started a new job which is great news, yes, its just, unfortunately, another time-consuming part of my life I have to juggle. Along with this I have just moved out of my mums place which has caused me money issues (I have no money...and I'm not exaggerating) but once I am settled and have money for essentials I'm hoping I will feel more positive and on the upside it means I no longer have to commute for 3 hours a day. Evidently, It feels like I have had no time to myself for the last few months and my life has been going 100mph with no time to catch my breath...

On top of all of this my healthy lifestyle has gone to shit.

I haven't been able to go to the gym due to lack of time and/or energy and to be perfectly honest I have a huge lack of motivation recently, so this means I am really unfit and I have gained over a stone in the last few months, I feel like crap and now trying to get back into fitness and the gym but getting back into the routine I used to maintain is proving extremely difficult, I know that once it's all back on track I will feel amazing, but at the moment I feel like a whale and I just don't care about myself and my appearance anymore.

If it's not one thing it's another, my days off are not 'days off' they are days to do something else that I've neglected, whether that's uni work, general errands or moving house!

I pray that this stress will end soon and I can finally form some kind of routine again..

It's a vicious circle of getting stressed/ stress eating/ gaining weight/ being depressed about gaining weight and eating again...

I just hope I don't get back to the size I used to be and this all evens out over the next few weeks.

I have lost my passion and my love for anything and everything which is so disheartening!

I NEED to sort myself out, get back to the gym and feel passionate about looking and feeling great.

If anybody has any tips on how to deal with stress and also being able to handle the gym whilst being extremely busy, please message me!

Positivity is lacking, but I'm hoping it will appear again soon.
I will write again when it does.


Over and out.