I think people underestimate the importance of a good routine, it brings stability, commitment, hard work and shows that you have the perseverance to succeed in whatever you do.

I have lost any kind of routine at the moment...

I am coasting along life, in a grey mist of nothingness, I miss routine, I miss a dedication to something (anything!) ...I have lost my flare to look amazing, feel amazing and concentrate on myself.

I no longer have a set routine of fitness, of wanting to achieve greatness and look amazing, I simply have fallen out of love with...myself...I used to look in the mirror each morning and smile knowing that all that hard work had paid off and my fitness was something to be proud of. Unfortunately, all that has faded and I'm left with the feeling of fatigue, laziness and no ambition to achieve anything in life.
I haven't felt like this in a long time and it really isn't a nice feeling.

There is a difference between forcing yourself to do something and wanting to do something and at the moment everything I do seems to be forced...but I know that once that routine has been implanted back into my brain everything will be fine...won't it?

I feel like a 50-year-old woman trapped in the body of a 22 year old. I feel that I have lived a life and now it's time to subdue to the 'norms' of society. But I have never wanted to be normal and I never want to be normal, that isn't who I am!

I am on medication to subdue these urges to be abnormal, to be spontaneous, to be myself. It is crazy to think that I am sacrificing a part of myself to be 'happy', but I am not happy. So what's the point?

I am 22 years old, I should be crazy, I should be spending money on alcohol and going out, I should be spontaneous, I should be living a life that I can talk about to people when I'm old, and I can say 'I did that'...
So what's stopping me..?
Living in London is expensive, having a job is the only way to survive and that means I have no time for these things...so where is the middle? can we balance work and a social life?

My happiest times were when I didn't care about what other people thought and I lived a life that made me love myself.

I will love myself again, it will take time, but it will happen...!

If something makes you happy my advice is DON'T GIVE IT UP, DON'T STOP, no matter what anybody says, if you want to work out every day, if you want to become a vegan, if you want to go to Australia DO IT.



LET'S GET BACK INTO A ROUTINE
but remember, don't get stressed if you fall out of it, just always try your best :)

DO IT, if you ever get down watch this:

DO IT